Hmm..so 4th of July for me and my wonderful family is pretty much lame...it's just like any other day. We don't do anything special or go anywhere or let off fireworks or anything. We just sit at home and do whatever we did the day before. Haha, i'm used to it now, we've been doin like that for 5 years almost. So yea it's pretty great...i suppose. Tomorro we get up and go violin shopping. Yay...except for the early part. I'm not to excited about that part. Hopefully i'll take lessons soon. I wanna be good enough to go to competition this year. seeing as it's my last year to compete. *cries* But if not, o well. I got some bright green fingernail polish today..and orange and black. Yea, it's pretty tight. At least the green is, the black is in the form of a pen & it looks really cool, I haven't put any orange on yet. I'm about to when i go back to my room, after i get the current color off of my toe nails. This next week is going to be quite busy. Monday is violin shopping, Tuesday is an appointment, Wednesday mom has a dr's appointment, Thursday is justin's follow up and my orthodontist appointment, and Friday is the day i head out to grandpa's. I wonder if there's going to be anything to do up there. My parents are trying to talk me into cooking...yea uh NOT going to happen. I'm too scared i'll like set something on fire or ruin something or something. So, no that's really quite more than alright with me. Hopefully it'll be fun. I've never flown by myself before....so that's really exciting. I'm really craving a pepsi right about now....*scurries to fridge for pop*....................*click....sip* Yummy yummy yummy. Lol. Alright, so here's the deal yo....i'm excited about school starting up. I really am! In one month and 3 days i will be starting school *cheers* The sooner i get in the sooner i get out the sooner i'm off to college and out of this state. WAHOO!! Lol. Yea even after 5 years i'm not a fan of where we live..now some people aren't so bad, however it's the other 99% that get on ur nerves. So..with great joy i will be moving out soon...well...sort of sooner. Well..all this is if i graduate...that's going to take plenty of prayer. Good lord, i tried re-piercing my ear yeasterday with a pin. Yea....2 of my cartilage piercings i can't find where the hole used to be so i've got 5 holes poked into one little area and a nice bloody ear to show for it. Way to go Cortney -.- I was able to get one earring in...but i've not given up yet...i'm gonna try again...sometime before i go to grandpa's hopefully. Right now it's sore v.v i suppose that's what i get. But i don't get it, it should still go through i've gone longer than a week and a half without wearing my cartilage and I have always been able to get that pin through so easily..what happened??? I wonder if it wasn't the pool...usually the water helps heal my cuts and stuff...i bet that did it. Man that sucks really bad. O well. Ok well i'm gonna go..buh-bye.

Ok so, yeasterday I was home alone pretty much all day. I loved it! It was so much fun. My parents woke me up before they left. So, after i plopped on the couch for a lil while, i hopped up, and fixed me some breakfast! Yea buddy! lol. All i did was make a fried egg..at least i guess that's what that is, idk, i just saw someone make it on a movie a long time ago..i guess i made it right. *shrugs* I put a little bit of oil in a pan, and just cracked the egg and let it cook...flipped it over and let the yolk get hard in the middle. I also made a slice of toast and fixed a nice hot cup of coffee. It was VERY different, but it was fun. Some things you just can't do every day haha. I had a few chores to do, like sweep and stuff, but that was ok, it kept me busy. I went out for lunch, and while i was out I had to run to Kroger, so it was no big deal. As i've said over and over, it was fun. Watched a little t.v. while i ate lunch..but mostly blasted the stereo as loud as i dared without getting complaints from the neighbours. Yea..and somehow my broom turned into a microphone a few times, and the kitchen a dance floor....and the overhead light was just a spot light, all on ME! haha. Yea...did i mention i had a few more cups of coffee after that one with my breakfast....then an energy drink......and a pop?? Just thought i'd verify i'm not that crazy without a little help. Haha. Naw, it was great. After all that crazyness i was ready for a sit down..i journaled and journaled and jounaled...i haven't journaled in over 2 months-give me a break. Plus that, i like to write in my journal...many random, out of no where thoughts come to me while i'm writing...so the journal page is kinda like my brain...scattered! O well...it's my journal, don't judge-write ur as organized as u'd like..dork. Just kiddin..about the dork part. O yea, and for a while..i sat in absolute silence for a while. I just turned off the cds and sat. The clock was ticking louder than ever...the thoughts raced through my head like the current of the mighty mississippi itself......o SO many thoughts. It was good for me, i suppose,..but it used to be for me to sit in silence, alone with myself and NO ONE at all...it never had a good ending. But this time was different. I mean yea a couple times i wasn't so sure, but hey guess what, i did. 90% of my thoughts weren't harmful ones. But i was mostly thinking of home. I don't know why, but i've been SOOO homesick lately. It made me sick to my stomache one night i was thinking so heavily about it. Becuase of this move, i've lost contact with SO many good friends i had up there. I've kept in really great contact with one...and she's it. Although thanks to facebook i got in touch with one other one, not regularly, but still talk to him here and there...i miss him a lot. I wanna hang out with him soon. He's so funny....he was the genuine class clown of the school..i mean his friend was pretty funny..but let's face it Jason wasn't always all that great, and you didn't ALWAYS laugh at jason, David however..you could always laugh his jokes....and he was just so goofy you couldn't HELP but laugh, and plus David was such a sweety. I might call him up tomorrow or something...sometime soon. Hmmm..i wonder if he's in town in 2 weeks, i wonder if mom would let me kick it with him for a day or a few hours or something. Idk..mom said we need to have him down here....but i doubt that'd happen really. Who knows, maybe it will someday. But yea, that's not the ONLY thing i thought about. I also thought about school. Hopefully i can get done early so i'm not stuck there til 12 the night before graduation haha...that'd really suck for me and poor Mrs Vicki who has to stay with me...i don't think she'd do that though..she would help me as much as possible, but i dont think she'd stay THAT long..i'd cry. I think she'd kill me before i could cry though. haha jk. I also thought about bein' 18....i'm excited, really excited, for it's another mile marker toward adult hood. However...i doubt it will feel any different than being 17. The difference is if i'm 18 i should probably NOT mess around with Timmy....yea not a good idea....yea-no. But hey, that's more than fine cuz umm...that usually gets me in trouble. Cuz a while back..like after kevin broke up with me i pretty much decided that dating is a BIG heck no...so i dont have boyfriends i have "mess around buddies" so..that's pretty much what i've been doin instead of dating. But..it's really NOT good..so i figure just swear off guys period. Saves me trouble, not to mention hastle of remembering who i did what with last week and the week before....and the problem of feeling the a whore the next few weeks...soooo...yea. It's just better all around. Anyway!! Let's see, what else did i do? O yea, i went swimming for a little bit. That was fun..more great thinking time! Yea buddy!! haha, but this was mostly memories rushing through my head....blowing through like Hurricain Katerina herself. Yea..they rushed through pretty powerfully...and they stayed for a while then left some damage to my head..the hit was hard, but the aftermath of the thought was the worst part. But i think it's fixed now...i hope. Time will tell i suppose. That's really it....ok so this is really rather long...sooo.. i'm gonna go off to other sites then head on out cuz no one is online =(