I'm pretty much freezing...yea, i'm freezing in upper 80 some odd º weather. Nice..huh? LOL.So nothing is really going on. I just got back from going to dinner with ali, that was fun. I was watching my little brother today..he's a cutie. I love him to death. His case worker came by today, and said if everything goes according to plan, he will be fully ours by the time he's 18 months. His 1 year birthday is coming up on the 27th. So mom is going to bake him a cake that's shaped like a panda bear. It's gonna be cool lookin'. Man alive, i have frikin' goose bumps and i'm wearing pj pants! Lol..that sucks..o well. Anyway, Dad also wants to get 1 year pictures done for justin. So, yea..it's gonna be a big production haha. He his such a cutie pie! Lol. I hope his biopsey goes ok...i hope there is nothing seriously wrong with him...if he has whatever it is his case worker has, he will have to take pills every 4 hours every day! So..i hope to God he doesn't have that, whatever it is..it's a VERY big 2 words and VERY confusing when u first hear it pronounced. So for my dignity's sake, i wont even try to pronounce it. Haha. I'm ready for school to get back in session. I miss it, maybe not so much the people, but more so i just want to get out already..i'm ready to move away. Although it's kind of grown on me down here, i still dont like it. I'm so homesick, it's crazy! I sat in my room the other day and i was thinkin how would life be diferent if we'd stayed in Missouri...if we never would've moved away. Now i don't know if everything would have always been great.......but i dont know if certain bad things in life would've happened to me either. I dont know if...if i would've had access to certain things i've had access to. I doubt it, because of the company i kept, but then again-who knows. I don't know, all i know is i miss everyone something terrible! I try to keep in touch, but it's so hard!! Specially with some of them, i don't hardly know them anymore so I'm really not sure what to say to them..when i'm NOT talkin' to them a bunch of stuff comes ot mind..however when i do start messaging or whatever, i can't think of a single thing to say. The friends i have down here..they're ok, but i was really thinking, really and very hard about it, and they're not exactly the BEST nor ideal friends. Now Ali, she's pretty good,but most others aren't so much. They're ok, and overall they're just guys being teenage guys &so they're ok and pretty good..but...idk. It's hard to explain. Idk, this summer has given me a lot of time to think and the more i think the more i become determined this place is NOT my home...i dont hate it with the burning passion that i used to, but i definately dont like it. People say i've even picked up a bit of an accent, im certainly not fond of that thought..haha. However I also think..if it wasn't for down here, would i have a friend that is SO close and SO dear to me i consider her a sister? Beyond the status of friend and ranked so highly on my little mind that i call her a twin, even? I really don't think so..in all honesty. I think she would still be the random pass by in the hall of church that you say a quick hello, how are you then along onto the rest of the day i go. However...becuase of homeschooling, we did start to get to be good friends. Cuz she was homeschooled as well, so we would go ice skating together and hung out sometimes....hmm..who knows. o.0